Have you ever heard of endometriosis? No? Neither had I until recently.
Endometriosis is a condition in which tissue that should grow in your uterus starts to grow on the outside of your uterus and surrounding organs. This disease can cause extreme pelvic pain, painful menstrual cycles, pain during intercourse, and infertility.
This is what I have.
Now, I’ve been experiencing symptoms of endometriosis for years, but never knew that’s what it was…
Until one day.
It was during intercourse with my husband that I started to experience intense pain, so much so that later that day I called my O.B.G and made a doctor’s appointment for the following week.
Earlier this year, I’d watched a video interview with a woman dealing with fibroids (similar symptoms) . I started to think that was what I had.
I sat in the bathroom researching fibroids and a couple of clicks and a search later I ended up on a page full of endo information. The first thing was a video diagram of a uterus, simply titled “Endometriosis," as I clicked on the video the voice of the Lord spoke. He told me this was what I have, and he’ll heal me.
I continued to watch the video (a few times..lol).
I remember feeling relieved because now I knew there was an actual name for all the pain I was experiencing.
Fast-forward to my doctor’s appointment; I told her what the Lord told me, she did an exam; we discussed the disease (and all it entails), then she laid out all my options.
I left her office with a pamphlet on how to manage endometriosis and a list of specialists.
To be honest, I don’t know what to expect or how any of this is going to play out.
But I do know that God is in control, and He promised to heal me.
I didn’t want to write about this. I wanted to wait until I was all healed and pregnant to share this part of my life.
But God had different plans.
When I sat down this week to write Friday's blog post, I was upset when the Lord told me I had to write about endo.
Thank God for his patience, grace, and mercy!
The Holy Spirit gently reminded me that my body is a temple of the Lord.
I do not belong to me! I am not my own!
He also brought to mind, Matthew 10:39- “If you cling to your life, you will lose it; but if you give up your life for me, you will find it.”
It’s foolish how we ask the Lord to use us, but if He answers our prayers in a way that takes us out of our comfort zone we immediately want to retreat and take ownership and control of our lives again.
Smh! That’s not ok!
I don’t know why the Lord wanted me to talk about my endometriosis so soon or why it’s even something I have to live with right now.
But I have to trust Him. We have to trust Him.
Whether you have endometriosis, know someone that does, or you’re dealing with another chronic illness.
We have to remember what’s important; our God is faithful!
And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. (Romans 8:28 NLT)
So after you’re done talking to the Lord.
If you find yourself wanting a female friend to talk to, laugh with, pray with, cry with (lol!) I’m here for you! We weren’t meant to do this life alone!
Photos courtesy of: Kai Bell